After sending out my personal accounting of my experiences with psychopathological behaviour and how I recovered from it to a few brave volunteers I have decided to save this for the book.

In a nutshell, years of abuse at home and at school combined with abandonment and life in state institutions left me with major anti social problems. I did some scary things to people. Stuff I don’t want splogs generators or Fuller Torrey getting their hands on  without proper context and background.

There is every indication I suffered recurring bouts of Brief Psychotic Disorder caused by traumatic events and abusive or toxic places. Years of untreated mental illness graduated into ever increasingly manic or disturbing behaviors which crossed the line from brief psychosis or psychotic mania into psychopathology. That was an issue in and of itself that sprang from the soil of clinical depression and ptsd. Psychopathology is not currently diagnosed in psychiatry but it is in fact a forensic label. The closest psych label is anti social personality disorder.A disorder which can be comorbid with another illness such as a mood disorder i.e. bipolar.

That is not a label I ever received from professional psychologist or psychiatrist. Bearing in mind, diagnosis is based on symptoms presented. Psychotic or psychopathic states in me were triggered by specific events and did not represent any ongoing condition like depression. It was definitely not something I would dare admit to for fear of being locked away permanently.

As a result of careful consideration of people’s reactions to and advice concerning my *confession* I will not be posting that accounting on this blog and the psychosis section is closed for now.